Today, January 6, is the one year mark from the day I left my ex-husband. If you have read much of my blog, you know that I'm doing really well. So much has changed in my life since that day one year ago.
I decided to leave in December, but I couldn't leave right away. I would have if I was in physical danger, but I wasn't. Since I was fine physically, I decided to stick around long enough to have some repairs done to my car, decide what to take right away and what to pack up for a future moving day, and allow my in-laws to celebrate the holidays joyfully.
The weird, leaving-but-not-leaving-yet period was very strange. My ex took the news of my leaving pretty well, and told me that he wanted me to be happy in the long run. I was a wreck emotionally, and he actually tried to comfort me at times. Sometimes I let him. I needed the comfort, and he's the one that was there, at home. And at the time, I didn't WANT to leave him.
Finally, The Day came. In some ways, it was like any other Saturday morning, which was extremely strange. I got up, took a shower, then we went to one of our favorite places for breakfast. I remember getting an awesome huge pumpkin pancake. We went home, and I finished packing my toiletry items that I was waiting until the last minute to do. My mom and Tiffany got there around noon. My ex used his work hand-truck to put one or two of my heaviest things in the cars. Tiffany left, and Mom went out to the car to give me some privacy to say goodbye. I hugged him, said goodbye, and left with tears running down my face. When I got to the car, I told my mom I would be okay. I still remember her saying, "I know you will."
Was she ever right!
It's been a year now, and I'm doing just fine. I have people that I enjoy being with. I have a zest for life again. I have hopes and dreams for the future. It's amazing to have come this far in 365 days!
I'd like to show you two pictures of me. The first is from November 2017. The second is from a year later.
Look at my eyes. I know the quality of the recent picture is much better because my sister-in-law is an awesome photographer! But even without that, I look so much happier and healthier in the second picture. My mom made a comment that the light had gone out of my eyes back then, but it's back now! I thank God for that! That's all I have for today. I just wanted to share this milestone with you all.
I decided to leave in December, but I couldn't leave right away. I would have if I was in physical danger, but I wasn't. Since I was fine physically, I decided to stick around long enough to have some repairs done to my car, decide what to take right away and what to pack up for a future moving day, and allow my in-laws to celebrate the holidays joyfully.
The weird, leaving-but-not-leaving-yet period was very strange. My ex took the news of my leaving pretty well, and told me that he wanted me to be happy in the long run. I was a wreck emotionally, and he actually tried to comfort me at times. Sometimes I let him. I needed the comfort, and he's the one that was there, at home. And at the time, I didn't WANT to leave him.
Finally, The Day came. In some ways, it was like any other Saturday morning, which was extremely strange. I got up, took a shower, then we went to one of our favorite places for breakfast. I remember getting an awesome huge pumpkin pancake. We went home, and I finished packing my toiletry items that I was waiting until the last minute to do. My mom and Tiffany got there around noon. My ex used his work hand-truck to put one or two of my heaviest things in the cars. Tiffany left, and Mom went out to the car to give me some privacy to say goodbye. I hugged him, said goodbye, and left with tears running down my face. When I got to the car, I told my mom I would be okay. I still remember her saying, "I know you will."
Was she ever right!
It's been a year now, and I'm doing just fine. I have people that I enjoy being with. I have a zest for life again. I have hopes and dreams for the future. It's amazing to have come this far in 365 days!
I'd like to show you two pictures of me. The first is from November 2017. The second is from a year later.
Look at my eyes. I know the quality of the recent picture is much better because my sister-in-law is an awesome photographer! But even without that, I look so much happier and healthier in the second picture. My mom made a comment that the light had gone out of my eyes back then, but it's back now! I thank God for that! That's all I have for today. I just wanted to share this milestone with you all.
It sounds like you are on the right track. I'm happy that you are happy.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're doing well, I really do. We're both so much better off now.
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